Me

When the lights go out, in the stillness of the night, I pray for the morning. It’s tough to fall asleep in the night. It’s hard to remove the traces, every little thing meant something. I beg “me” to cry, “me” holds back its tears, “me” wants to be brave, it’s brave to bear with the unbearable. Either u try to sleep or u wait for dawn, or u even may cry too, it’s ok to cry sometimes.

Pain

Year 2008…Is it a good start? Not for me. I’ve not experienced such pain for a long time. I tried not to break down yet the emotion was too much to handle. I prayed to God to relieve me of this pain I’m going through. Every passing minute hurts, when I bathe, when I eat, when I watch TV. I’ve told myself, the last time it happened, that I would keep away from such sadness and would never let it anywhere near me, ever again. Now it’s back. I promised myself that I would be happy, I broke that promise. I’m struggling so hard; whatever that’s holding on to me is going to snap. I’m trying to remember how I got over it previously, no answers are coming my way. I’m overwhelmed. I’m breaking down. Please take away my pain…