Pain

Year 2008…Is it a good start? Not for me. I’ve not experienced such pain for a long time. I tried not to break down yet the emotion was too much to handle. I prayed to God to relieve me of this pain I’m going through. Every passing minute hurts, when I bathe, when I eat, when I watch TV. I’ve told myself, the last time it happened, that I would keep away from such sadness and would never let it anywhere near me, ever again. Now it’s back. I promised myself that I would be happy, I broke that promise. I’m struggling so hard; whatever that’s holding on to me is going to snap. I’m trying to remember how I got over it previously, no answers are coming my way. I’m overwhelmed. I’m breaking down. Please take away my pain…